For a few years now, I have been feeling like a 40-something year old trapped in a 20-something year old's body. I know that sounds odd and women usually wish its the other way around, so let me explain.
I've never really been one to go out and party it up and go wild. I've never smoked a cigarette (or anything else), I've never gotten black-out drunk and stupid, I've never "hooked up" with anyone at a party, or anything else young-adult like. I've always acted more mature than my age, but recently its kicked into high gear.
Don't get me wrong-that doesn't mean that I'm not happy with my life the way it is. I absolutely love where I am in life and I'm so excited to see what will happen before I am 40-something, but sometimes I wish I could fast-forward.
I want kids.
I want to decorate for the holidays.
I want an apartment large enough to be able to decorate.
I want to craft.
I want to cook and bake all day.
I want to throw dinner parties and brunches, and do all the decorating and cute name-tagging and labeling that goes along with them.
I want to host family for the holidays.
I don't mind doing dishes or laundry.
Sometimes, I even wish I lived in the suburbs so that I could run errands in the car.
The problem with most of those things is that they require a stable income, which I haven't quite figured out yet.
And as I said, I am in love with my life right now. I just can't help looking forward to the latter part of life.
Do any of you guys feel like you should be a different age? Am I super weird for feeling this way? I would love to hear your thoughts.
I've never really been one to go out and party it up and go wild. I've never smoked a cigarette (or anything else), I've never gotten black-out drunk and stupid, I've never "hooked up" with anyone at a party, or anything else young-adult like. I've always acted more mature than my age, but recently its kicked into high gear.
Don't get me wrong-that doesn't mean that I'm not happy with my life the way it is. I absolutely love where I am in life and I'm so excited to see what will happen before I am 40-something, but sometimes I wish I could fast-forward.
I want kids.
I want to decorate for the holidays.
I want an apartment large enough to be able to decorate.
I want to craft.
I want to cook and bake all day.
I want to throw dinner parties and brunches, and do all the decorating and cute name-tagging and labeling that goes along with them.
I want to host family for the holidays.
I don't mind doing dishes or laundry.
Sometimes, I even wish I lived in the suburbs so that I could run errands in the car.
The problem with most of those things is that they require a stable income, which I haven't quite figured out yet.
And as I said, I am in love with my life right now. I just can't help looking forward to the latter part of life.
Do any of you guys feel like you should be a different age? Am I super weird for feeling this way? I would love to hear your thoughts.
Hi Caitlin,
ReplyDeleteYou are a beautiful woman. I love who you are. I hope you have all those things one day. You would be amazing at them all. I hope you have a husband that loves, adores, and celebrates all those things that you do for your family and home. You will be an incredible wife and mother and worth celebrating. I love you my friend.